1 more b4 the CNY...

welll, just meet my dad for dinner today...its been quite long...seems like we onli meet once a yr...every1 was juz so busy with their life...alot to go on...in juz wink his baby boy i seen not long ago was already 2 yrs old...can see how happy he was bring him up, was proud of the child...was happy for him... tat y i say ppl always learn from mistakes... dun be afraid if u fail u onli worry when u do not learn... we talked more this time...i can see he was quite regretted...

for me...its be 6 yrs since i called or shouted dad... n now i had forgottn if i called papa or i call daddy in the past...n worst i got no courage to call him... was weird... i still rmb 1 wish i made after i saw his baby boy 2 yrs ago...i hope the little one do not get a broken family like me... Mistakes on us pls let it be the fortunate for him...i hope my dad is a betta parent now...frm wat i see he is...guessed he learnt...

ya n i get to noe that my grand dad frm my father's side was died frm falling down b4 he went for an operation...N to think years back(when i was really young) that i have done some mean things like crying when ye ye eats up my wang wang biscuits...i really regret man... but gradually..when i understands most things, i noe i m wrong, i started do things like getting food for him when having dinner...thou did not last for long...cuz some quarrel happen n we are no longer willing to eat at hm... sometimes i really hate myself for doing thing like that ,but as i say i was young, if i think like what i did now at the age of 8yrs old...means 8 yrs old having an 18yrs olds maturity, i would be a freak...

Mum was worried tht i could not get along well with ALKK... she was worried that this hatrate will last for as long as i m old...haha...but i m some 1 who can forgive lots of little things u done...for many reasons, i will try to forgive u... not bcuz of u but the ppl ard u, that i care abt...but if u go overborad one day...i will nv forgive u, n i promise i'll be stubborn...so its not too bad being petty too... cuz if u get angrys easily but forgets easily is better den me... i dun get angry easily... but is difficult not to get angry if i m really fed up with u...bcuz i had always forgive n forget abt so many little things u have done...

N, i juz can't show tat nth has happen when i really hate u...all will be shown on my face, actions, expression....ya...basically i will wan to let u noe tat i HATE u...maybe this is in the genes cuz my sis is more stubborn den me in this situation, i m already slightly softer den her...

hahaha...i noe this is was quite a dull blog...maybe tats y is call a blog...cuz u can blog abt anything...arrrh....

N ML+ Sa...miss u gers...take care....


at last, frm me, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

~~Mandy~~