Chicken Pie

I still do not know the the taste of polar's chicken pie... During the days when my ah gong was hospitalised, we(my family n relatives) were also sort of "hospitalised"... we nv fail to be thr no matter shine or rain, day and night...We were so afraid tat at any time ah gong open his eyes nobody were there... Everyone's wish was to wake him up, hope tat he would then finally feel better, not even dare to hope tat he will recover, tat was how critical his condition was...

Everytime i stood beside his bed, and for the first and also last time in my life, i held his hand tight and called him... Yes, it was really sad for the past 19 yrs of my life, i had no memory of holding his hands... Maybe i did not hold him tight enough tats y he left me...

During one of the night, he finally woke up and looked really alert, he is able to respond to whatever qsn we ask...I ask him if he was fine... he look at me with a deep frown and shook his head... Of cuz i know u are not fine, looking at how much pain u suffer how can u smile and say u are fine,stupid me!

The next day i see him, he was no longer alert, his eyes was barely open, trying all he could juz to take a look at us... Again i held his hands and ask " ah gong want to go home?" He knode his head clearly to me... and i said" once u r fine we can all go home together..." He no longer wan to respond...Cuz he wants to go "home" all by himself not with us anymore, tats wat mummy told me... But i choose not to believe...

Monday night, i bot myself a chicken pie from polar and save it for the next day's lunch...we stayed in the hospital till 3am... I place the Pie in my fridge and i can heat up in the toaster tml... and after doing all my stuffs, i only manage to get on bed at about 4am... 7am in the morning, i receive a call frm my mum, telling me tat ah gong left... ... When i finally reach hospital and get to see ah gong,tat was the last time i called him directly near his face and i still cannot accept tat he left,as i held his hands which was still warm... We kept calling him, hoping tat he will come back...

The Pie was untouched till everything ended...

Ah gong... I am missing u so much... Thanks for everything u have done for us... U will always be rmb as the most thoughtful grandfather in my heart...U will always be living in the hearts of ours... Thanks for loving us with the most u can, we love u too...